The Final Fork

This is the final fork in my journey to Las Vegas.
This whole thing has just been so emotionally draining over the last few months, and so bumpy, that I just want to be done making such difficult decisions.
My choices: Leave the job I just accepted today here in California, and move to Vegas this month. Free rent in exchange for babysitting kids I LOVE and adore to pieces...  Look for seasonal jobs, and hope that it lasts longer. OR wait until January.. Stay and work, save a couple thousand dollars. Do nothing besides work and pack until January. I know I'd be sad, but I'd feel safer having some money.

Currently bawlinggg.
I've prayed and fasted and been paying my tithing.....
Clearly both choices are the right ones. Staying would be fine, but leaving would be fine as well.
The Lord has made that clear.
I just don't know what to do.

I don't want to make Erin and Mike look bad, by telling Peter (new boss), "I really appreciate the opportunity, but I'm sorry. I cant work for you."
And I don't want anybody to be upset with me anymore, especially after jerking everyone around for the last few months.
And I want to help Gene and Zina when THEY need ME, because they will be helping me SO much by letting me live there rent free.
Leaving now feels like a much riskier decision... but it's what I want MOST.
I worked my butt off to get a job here...

It seems like when I needed something to happen, it wouldn't. But when I have a plan set... things change, and a million other options open up.

I know that the Lord is helping, not making this harder.
He's giving me my options, and it's up to me to decide.

I just wish I were more secure in Vegas, before I decided to leave... IF i decided to leave sooner. I know it would be smarter for me to have money before I left... but I want to be there.... SO much. I don't want to be sad anymore about not being there.....
I feel like staying here and working til January would be the exact same as having a seasonal job in Vegas. The timing is the same. But if I at least was in Vegas, I wouldnt have to leave that job if I were offered a stable position.

But will my DESIRE to leave, over power what I SHOULD DO before moving??